A wedding is a day, a marriage is a lifetime.
The following quote came to my mind when I was shopping for my wedding shoes this afternoon. After checking out Christian Louboutin, Stuart Weitzman, Jimmy Choo, Aldo, Nine West, Steve Madden, Cole Haan, Zara, Charles & Keith, Ferragamo and On Pedder, I can FINALLY conclude the shoe search.
The thing is, I’ve spent the past few weekends shopping for the wedding - lingerie, shoes, jewelry etc - alone (I prefer shopping alone, don’t have to worry about people waiting for me) and when I return home from work on weekday evenings, I do a quick dinner with the boyfriend and then spend the rest of the night doing more wedding stuff. Emailing vendors, researching and all that. Even when we are physically together during meals or before bedtime, I’m usually on my phone either messaging the partner who is now my personal stylist about the dresses, the shoes or just checking out more wedding stuff on the Internet.
I have forgotten to ask him how his day went, or listen to him tell me about his new fishing reel or even thank him for the dinner he prepared. I know I have posted something about this before but it was only today sometime between Louboutin and Jimmy Choo that I realized that I might be focusing too much on the wedding and ironically, neglecting the person I’m marrying.
It’s going to take me A LOT to try to loosen up cause I suffer from insane OCD (FYI I think I’m no bridezilla cause I have yet to boss anyone around, I just do everything myself with crazy wtf details) but I think with 4 weeks to go till the wedding, it’s time I start to trust that things will fall into place somehow and get back to being in love, which is why I’m marrying him in the first place, right?
So with that, I’m logging off my computer now to have dinner with the boy and let him tell me about the new amazing fishing reel he just bought and the super awesome magic cards (yes wtf) he has :)